Sunday, May 25, 2008
Not the Answer I Wanted
So, many of you know that I was hoping to move to Pennsylvania. I have been talking about it for almost a year and even went out there to look for houses. Ever since I have thought this might be a possibility I have been praying to see if this would be the right decision for my family and I never got a real strong feeling either way. So I figured this meant either way would be fine. So I have been living the last year thinking maybe (hopefully) we will get to move close to my family. I figured if we were going to move I would want to do it before school starts in September, so we would have to put our house up for sale immediatly if that were to be a possibility. So Friday morning I prayed again to know, what in the heck I am suppose to do about this. No answer. Friday night I told Kevin we need to sit and have a serious chat about this, so we did and in the middle of our discussion I got my answer. Only once in my life have I recieved an answer to a prayer more strongly then this came to me. It was not a whisper it was a shout, "You are not moving to Pennsylvania." I sat on the couch and started crying and continued to do this for many hours till I fell asleep that night. Clearly this was not the answer I had hoped for. I really thought that I would be moving out there. I am really sad, really sad. It is really hard for me to be the only kid in my family who does not live driving distance from home, my kids will never really get to know their cousins or that side of the family, which is so sad for me. (As I write this I am crying again.) So to my mom and sisters especially, I am sorry, I had really looked forward to living closer to you, but it is something that is not meant to be (for now at least).